Well since being back, I have had a friend take nakkid pic of me as she wanted to start taking pics of real people. I am very pleased with the pictures of me she took. Of course I feel way fucking fat, but we all are pretty much over critical of ourselves. In truth she has a great eye and gave very good directions. I have made all the ones she took my favorites. To see more of Synn's work go here: [link]

OMG!! Yes I am back it has been a while and life has been fucking crazy for lack of a better term. There have been up and downs and I have had all kinds of just crazy. I am in school and that of course keeps my busy.

What got me wanting to come back here is I am taking a Calligraphy class and doing some pretty awesome stuff. We are doing the UNCIAL hand right now and I will have a few different pictures to post of some of the work I have been doing in class and my final project.

I just wanted to say hello and I have all ready seen a ton of work that I have loved.

I have missed you all and can't wait to start sharing my many different works again!!

Bright Blessings!!
Isadora

Well my coughing is going a way for the most part and the death rattle has lessened a lot. This is all good. I have smoked about 4 smokes in the last 4 days, a record for me. Like I said I like breathing more. So will have to see about quiting. Seems I am well on my way!!

I hate these drugs. They are make my stomach run a muck. And I do mean run. Gas heaven her baby. But at least I am not throwing up. Throwing up is one of the side effects. Speaking of side effects, are they trying to kill you when they give you meds that are suppose to help?? Check out some fo the side effects for the Prednisone.

Prednisone: (PRED-ni-sone)
POSSIBLE SIDE EFFECTS: SIDE EFFECTS , that may go away during treatment, include difficulty sleeping (no fucking shit I was up till 5:30 am yesterday morning), mood changes (big surprise there, but nothing new there, I all ways want to kill the dumb bitches at school, LOL), nervousness, increased appetite (as if I need a bigger ass), or indigestion. If they continue or are BOTHERSOME (you have to fucking joking right? Bothersome, that's a fucking laugh, I did like to sleep you know), check with your doctor. CHECK WITH YOUR DOCTOR AS SOON AS POSSIBLE if you experience swelling of the feet or legs; unusual weigh gain (help me, my ass is now the size of Texas, can you help me doctor?), black tarry stools (holy shit); vomiting material that looks like coffee grounds (how about I fucking pass on this one as well, any vomiting and I am out of here, but the upside is I get free coffee) severe nausea or vomiting (does this mean more than once, fuck, that is no help, more that once is severe to me); changes in menstrual periods (to fucking late, would of been nice to know that with the first set); headaches; muscle weakness; or prolonged sore throat; cold or fever. If you notice other effects not listed above, contact your doctor, nurse or pharmacist 9like having my own personal methane center boiling in my tummy. Did I mention the gas? Holy shit, don't light up around me, I swear I have my own small tactical nuke building up inside me!! LOL!!).

Well I hope you liked my side comments. I do try to find little humor in everything as it keeps me sane. If I was too serious I would go insane. Thought might be an improvement as I am a little insane, but again who isn't!! LOL!! Now on to the antibiotic, as doing this amuses me and I have a few people out there that know what I am going threw. I want to share my joy with you all!! *stick twisted puppy, that is me*

ERYTHROMYCIN (eh-rith-roe-MYE-sin)POSSIBLE SIDE EFFECTS: SIDE EFFECTS, that may go away during treatment, include abdominal cramping or discomfort (see above, small nuke center being built), nausea or diarrhea (TMI, I will spare you all details), If they continue are are BOTHERSOME (again, living in the fucking bathroom can be an issue, calling during this time might mean you will catch me in the bathroom, call at your own risk, LOL!! Just fucking with you all), check with your doctor. CHECK WITH YOUR DOCTOR if you experience vomiting, severe stomach cramping, fever, yellowing of the skin or eyes (HOLY FUCKING SHIT, as if I don't have enough issue I will look I am filled with urine, thanks a fucking lot) or darkening of urine (not likely as it will be all going to my skin and eyes). If you notice other side effects not listed above, contact your doctor, nurse or pharmacist.


Now lets look at the key words that are mentioned here:

SEVERE se·vere


1. Unsparing, harsh, or strict, as in treatment of others: a severe critic.

2. Marked by or requiring strict adherence to rigorous standards or high principles: a severe code of behavior.

3. Stern or forbidding, as in manner or appearance: spoke in a severe voice.

4. Extremely plain in substance or style: a severe black dress.

5. Causing great discomfort, damage, or distress: a severe pain; a severe storm.

6. Very dangerous or harmful; grave or grievous: severe mental illness.

7. Extremely difficult to perform or endure; trying: a severe test of our loyalty.




BOTHERSOME both·er·some

Causing bother; troublesome.


Well doesn't that explain a lot. I guess if I was a cry baby I would be running/calling the doctor every 5 minutes. A lot of the this side effects are VERY BOTHERSOME, But I am made of tougher stuff, plus I have a group of people that I can moan and groan to that understand, please it seems a little more bearable and funny when put in this light. I have really been trying to see the upside of all these less than happy things that happen to me me from time to time. I got an inhaler, which I needed cause I was out. I might have a figure on why I need to see a doc twice with in 10 days. Which is super not normal for me. If I have to go to the doctor I need to be all most dying and not being able to breath is a DAMN good reason. Now my sister needs to find me some Advair(SP) to use for a little while. I know I should get it from a doctor, but if I can get it for free I will do so. Beggars can't be choosers!! And that is the down side of not having insurance. Which is the first thing I am getting when I start working. I am also going to check into be a human test subject for my Graves disease!!

The other up side I finally got on the books at this cheap clinic that I have been trying to get into for three months now. That means I can finally get the meds I need for my Graves disease. Which is becoming and issue again. My eyes are starting to hurt more and my goiter is trying to come back. I need some Bladderwack to help till I get the other drugs I need. Bladderwack comes form a seaweed plant found on the Oregon Coast. I need to see if i can get some more to take as when I was taking it it helped with my eyes and neck. Sort of spending. 15 bucks for a 60 day treatment. But not as much as the other crap the docs want to give me. The normal pill I need to take once a day is a dollar a freaking pill. Now that is really spendy!!

So I all ready mentioned I had the issue with the membranes around my heart and lungs. Got shots and meds for that, but no antibiotics. This time longer and bigger dose of both steroid and antibiotic. Wish I got another shot as it cleared it up right away, breathing became super easy super fast. So this doctor I saw the other day said she things that I may have Adult On Set Asthma. Which should of been treated about 2 to 3 years ago. But since it was not I am having a super severe reaction as my body rebels. It's playing catch up. Time to make you pay for all the years you didn't have to deal with this. TRAITOR!!!

Well you know I didn't have as many issues when I had my kitty. I got my daily dose of dander and was good. It was nice as i could go most places. Now I have to be careful I am not to long in places that may be covered in hair. AND my friends have come to my aid to make there homes ME friendly. By doing simple things, like vacuuming before I come over or washing linens in the cat free rooms when I spend time at their house. I have the most wonderful friends. It also helps that I have a new inhaler. When i was getting low I didn't want to chance being to long at my buddies houses which freaking sucked. When I get a home again, I will get another kitten. It needs to be a kitten so i can get them use to be washed all the time. Plain water bath once a week for 6 months then once a month baths and I am all good. I so miss kitty. I had her for 11 years. She rocked. She hopefully is in a good home being spoiled to death living out her golden years. Plus and this is the coolest thing, she would wake me up when I was a sleep if i stopped breathing. Did I mention I have sleep apnoea ?? Kitty didn't like when I stopped breathing and I love her more for it, even if she did wake me up in the most rude fashions she could think of. but hey it worked, I woke up and she would run off having done her job! Bless her little soul!!

I also have to be off school for 10 days. Now that just sucks. I think I will take a leave so i don't lose the time at school. I don't want to mess up my my plans for when I get out of school. Got to do what I got to do. The upside of this is I have been able to get a lot of the stuff done computer wise that I have not been able to do in a while. I have anew once a week project i am going to be working on soon. Should be a good time. I love this new book. See I am on dwelling on the good. I have nothing else to do. But go to game and sit in front to of this computer and get shit done. And study of course. Hell I got the time and can use the studying. I need to be able to pass my test at state broad the first time there. If I don't i have to pay it all again. And that is not cool!!I

Well I think I have gone on enough for now. I had to get all that off my chest as all this has been annoying me for the last couple of days. look back to being my normal insane self!! LOL!! So now I have ranted and feel so much better for it. Thank you if you made it to the end. It means a lot to me. Hope everyone is well. I have more on my mind, but I am feeling a little tried. I might be able to get to sleep before 5:30a.m this morning. Plus I need to be up by noon so i can go to school and speak with the financial Aid lady and talk money. Money is good!! Make the world go round and lines the pockets of the anti-Christ!!

Well this was the major sewing weekend out at Suzie's. Saturday and Sunday went pretty good. Had a pack meeting Sunday night it is was very productive and a lot of fun. Had great turkey burgers and many, many munchies.

I did hair. Suzie's hair looks fucking awesome. The colors are freaking great and I can't wait to get a picture of it to post. It was a long drawn out process. Hey good color takes time and I do a damn good job at it. I am pleased and Suzie is very happy. She still misses her long hair, but it is all healthy now and will all be good strong hair from now on. Just have to make sure that I keep her away from the CRAPPY products!!

I did a lot of sewing. I got one of the bodices all done and Suzie got it all together. It's red and the strawberries on it are freaking great. I still have to cover the grommet with thread, but short of that it's fucking hot. I have 4 new skirts and will have one chemise, three hats, one coif and one set of sleeves. I will be pretty well off. I am adding embroidery to everything as it's one of the things I am good at. I have two more bodices to finish adding embroidery on and the coif.

So that brings us to Monday morning!! Monday morning I got to spend around 5 hours in the ER!! Well why your wondering? Well I could breathe and the "right" side of my chest was hurting. Suzie was a trooper and drove my all the way into Portland as there is not fucking emergency room out in St. Helen's. She was a good sport about the whole thing. Did I mention I had to wake her up at 3:00ish in the morning and that she had to watch the fucking Telatubies (spelling??). Yep she took one for the team and I owe her big for that special hell she had to be submitted to.

Now at first the Doctor was going to blame this on smoking and being around cats, then he starting asking more questions about the pain on the right side of my chest at it seemed a little odd. He ordered an EKG and an X-ray. EKG was inconclusive and lungs were clear. They didn't do blood work.But the pain was still there and was worst if I layed down. So he asked me more questions and came back with the below issues. Though i tell you what I wasn't leaving the ER with a "Hey quit smoking" lecture. Yes I know it's bad and when I am ready I will quit, I realize that smoking can cause me some issues that I normally won't have to deal with. I understand those things. That being said, I don't have insurance so I don't go to the ER unless I really need to, and my body was really telling me to take my ass to the hospital. I am reminded that that breathing is one of the most important things the human body can do and breathing is fucking wonderful!! I love it. It was just weird having that kind of pain only on one side of my chest. Freaked me out.

So it seems that I had Pericarditis and Pleurisy, for the non doctor types out there, it means that the membrane around my heart and lungs was swollen (inflammation). Both can be causes by a viral infection and Pleurisy can also be causes by pneumonia. Now both will go away in about 7 to 14 days and can be treated with ibuprofen, Advil, Mortin etc... Antibiotics given if pneumonia is present. Doc says it sounds a lot worst than it is as it's a common thing and can be treated easily. I am to take it easy and not over do it. Will see if I can be on dispense at school tomorrow. That isn't to hard and if it gets to be to much then I will go home, no point in pushing it, don't want to get more sick.

Well just so you all know I am feeling must, must better. My chest is not hurting much anymore when I breathe that is a HUGE plus. I got a huge shot of anti-inflammation drugs with a little antibiotics, but was not given any to take afterward. I got a breathing treatment when I got there which helped a lot. I have a new inhaler, thank goodness as I needed one and that is the upside of the little adventure. I got a 5 day dose of Prednisone, which is a corticosteroid, which I really fucking hate taking. It's the longest I have ever had to take them for. I have had to take them before but only for three or two days. I don't like the way they make me feel. I am more aggressive and really should not be going to school, but don't want to miss any more hours. So to hell with it.

So that was my holiday weekend. The upside is I got to hang out with cool friends, got a new inhaler which I badly needed and got all the cutting out I needed to do done and one bodice done with the embroidery!!

Bad side, new really fucking hell hospital bill.

RANTINGS OF A MAD Woman!!!!

Mood: freaking awesome
Listening to: Broken Wings by: Mr. Mister
Reading: Kushiel's Chosen; by Jacqueline Carey
Watching: Hunt for Red October

DAMN IT!! My da sub is going to run out tomorrow and that really sucks much ass. I wish I could re-new for another three months, as having the extras sure does make it easier to get things done on here.

I just wanted to drop a quick note to let you all know I am not leaving, but will be slower in commenting with out a subscription, it seems to take more time to load with all the damn ads and such. But I am here and don't plan on going anywhere!!

Anyway, got to run, I have more house cleaning to do in the next two hours before I really need to go to bed!! Hope ever one is having a wonderful month and will have a better update later!!

Miss you all!!

Love, Isadora

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